Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Audry Horne

To be Gorgeous.... Sigh*

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Sometimes you feel like Michael Jackson and his Chimp

Bubbles is his name, I feel out of place, out of mind. Is this how Jackson felt? Or Bubbles?

I was born in the wrong decade...

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

A man of integrity:

Causes are not cures! If you are not a cure you are a cause.

I don't believe in religion. Period.

For logical, and sound reasons, of which people of a religious nature have not.(Faith doesn't count mother fucker!) My argument: Organizations are all corrupt on some level. True. A religion or gathering of individuals is an organization, therefore by definition it is corrupt. This must be so. The argument that no one is perfect is valid only on a personal level of self awareness because no one really 'knows' anyone else. So I will agree if you admit you are not perfect(neither am I) But for a religion/corporation to say they practice under Christ is an abomination. By definition! Christianity can only be practiced on a personal level. To bring it into such a cult setting is not CHRIST-LIKE! Christ did not practice Mormonism he practiced good will. That's it, kind acts.

With that basis I just want to say. I don't hate Mormons in general I just believe that the church they are practicing is too contravened, moronic, unethical, and made to view women in a chauvinist manor, I have personally experienced this and wish it not on my worse enemy.

I am angry and insulted. A grand reason for my discoveries(which I am grateful for in the fullest) is because of male pigs. An ex husband that found it appropriate to treat me like anything but human, and a predator who was "sealed" to his "eternal companion" not 3 months shy of doing unnameables with me. Of bishops who laughed in my tear stained face while I begged for help, for a way out!

For all these men have shaped me. I am what I am, but I stand before you more brilliant, confident in my love of who I am, who I will be, and what I can become. Because of these men I have set myself free. I thank them and applaud the actions it took to evoke such a fire in me. The regret? This happens on repeat. A sick draining song, the catechizing of women in the church. Not everyone is set free.... And I regret that many women are down trodden and pulled under the dull lull. I regret they can not truly be set free in Christ, for they are being held down by the iron rod.

All I ask, (Gentlemen are you listening?): Sit.

Stay. Lay down.

Roll over, and STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY Because I'm not finished with you yet.

(This post is not directed toward decent men) You know who you are.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

tomar el toro por las astas

Just took a green turd, from my green curry, yesterday. Parts of my bowels are empty but they are shifting. I love this sensation. Have you ever wanted to flush your life down a toilet like a big stinky turd? No I'm not talking about killing myself(or yourself for that matter) I mean to see what's beyond this white bowl in a brightly lit bathroom next to a well supplied paper napkin dispenser, looking just like another bathroom in another place? What if you just dropped all you know here in this filtered and over thought country. In the US of A where even obese women can sit and talk about high fructose corn syrup and why its illegal in other countries. I feel like abandoning ship today. I just directly decided that if I do well enough to apply for a law school I want and it happens to be in another state and Cody can't come. I will go.... I'm going to start being selfish. This is my life. I decide how it runs. I will not feel guilty for working doubles and not seeing Cody. This is something I need to do, and though I miss him so much I am aching I will live my life. I will not rely on someone else for my happiness. It's me. That's it. I believe birds, bugs, and mother earth will always be here too. But I just realized something profound. It's my life... And it's now, or never. “There is luxury in self reproach. When we blame ourselves, we feel no one else has a right to blame us.” -Oscar Wilde

An Organization of Delayed Jewels...

The irony of religion is that because of its power to divert man to destructive courses, the world could actually come to an end. The plain fact is, religion must die for mankind to live. The hour is getting very late to be able to indulge having in key decisions made by religious people. By irrationalists, by those who would steer the ship of state not by a compass, but by the equivalent of reading the entrails of a chicken. George Bush prayed a lot about Iraq, but he didn't learn a lot about it. Faith means making a virtue out of not thinking. It's nothing to brag about. And those who preach faith, and enable and elevate it are intellectual slaveholders, keeping mankind in a bondage to fantasy and nonsense that has spawned and justified so much lunacy and destruction. Religion is dangerous because it allows human beings who don't have all the answers to think that they do. Most people would think it's wonderful when someone says, "I'm willing, Lord! I'll do whatever you want me to do!" Except that since there are no gods actually talking to us, that void is filled in by people with their own corruptions and limitations and agendas. And anyone who tells you they know, they just know what happens when you die, I promise you, you don't. How can I be so sure? Because I don't know, and you do not possess mental powers that I do not. The only appropriate attitude for man to have about the big questions is not the arrogant certitude that is the hallmark of religion, but doubt. Doubt is humble, and that's what man needs to be, considering that human history is just a litany of getting shit dead wrong. This is why rational people, anti-religionists, must end their timidity and come out of the closet and assert themselves. And those who consider themselves only moderately religious really need to look in the mirror and realize that the solace and comfort that religion brings you comes at a horrible price. If you belonged to a political party or a social club that was tied to as much bigotry, misogyny, homophobia, violence, and sheer ignorance as religion is, you'd resign in protest. To do otherwise is to be an enabler, a mafia wife, for the true devils of extremism that draw their legitimacy from the billions of their fellow travelers. If the world does come to an end here, or wherever, or if it limps into the future, decimated by the effects of religion-inspired nuclear terrorism, let's remember what the real problem was. We learned how to precipitate mass death before we got past the neurological disorder of wishing for it. That's it. Grow up or die.


Having a discussion yesterday that started with my father asking me "A Question" Sure Dad. "When are you and Cody getting married, you've been divorced for a while now." A) Whenever we damn well please! B) What does being divorced have to do with marriage... It has everything not to do with marriage! This led to a rather assertive religious discussion on my end. Father- "You know if the bishop finds out your living with him he'll excommunicate you." GOOD, that will save me the trouble of writing a letter then. "What?" Ya... I don't believe in the church dad... If there was a God he wouldn't approve of the church. To have a church/organization with the name of Christ is an insult to him, it's a total hypocrisy. No organization of men can all be Christ like. That's a personal journey and you will screw it up on the way. Organizing people together is the worse possible way to be Christian. The Nazi didn't start out to kill Jews and to hurt any number of other persons. No, no. No Organization can be perfect like Christ so give it up. Do it on your own! I believe being a better person will reward you in this life if nothing else. I will be writing my letter at work tonight and also looking up how exactly to submitted it and to whom. FUCK THE 'SAINTS' OF THE CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER DAY SAINTS! FUCK EM!

Historical Fact:

"People stopped being human(and become machines) in 1913. That was the year Henry Ford put his cars on rollers and made his workers adopt the speed of the assembly line. At first, workers rebelled. They quit in droves, unable to accustom their bodies to the new pace of the age. since then, however, the adaption has been passed down: we've all inherited it to some degree, so that we plug right into joysticks and remotes to repetitive motions of a hundred kinds."


Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Already plotting

It's an addiction... I love my hair but know I am thinking about growing it out for about 6-10 months... Perhaps a year, and chop! AGAIN! :D I will be having swoop bangs with a twiggy inspired short cut... I love short hair and this all happened so suddenly. I will grow it out long after I cut like this. You're only young once ;)

.x.NEW HAIR.x.

Sunday, August 8, 2010


Skinny Tzatziki
Servings: 8 • Serving Size: 1/4 cup Points: 0 pts
Calories: 17.8 Fat: 0 g Protein: 2.6 g Carb: 1.7 g Fiber: 0.1 g
  • 8 oz fat free greek yogurt (I used Fage)
  • 1 small cucumber, peeled and seeded (1 cup grated and drained)
  • 1 clove garlic, crushed
  • 1 tsp lemon juice
  • 1 tbsp fresh dill, chopped
  • 1 tbsp fresh chives, chopped
  • kosher salt and fresh pepper
Strain the yogurt using a metal strainer or a coffee filter for a few hours to remove as much liquid as possible. Set aside.

Scoop seeds out of the cucumber with a small spoon. Place cucumber in a mini food processor or grate with a box cheese grater. Drain the liquid from the cucumber in ametal strainer and sprinkle with a little salt (this helps release the liquid). You may want to use the back of a spoon to help squeeze out any excess liquid.

Combine strained cucumber, garlic, yogurt, salt, pepper, lemon juice, dill, chives and refrigerate for a few hours before serving.

Makes about 2 cups. Store in refrigerator for about a week.

Greek Turkey Meatballs
Servings: 4 • Serving Size: 4 meatballs Points: 5 pts
Calories: 254.7 • Fat: 11.2 g Protein: 26.8 g Carb: 13.4 g Fiber: 3.7 g

  • 1.25 lbs 93% lean ground turkey
  • 1 cup zucchini, grated and liquid squeezed out
  • 2 sliced whole wheat bread (I used Weight Watchers)
  • 1/4 cup seasoned whole wheat breadcrumbs
  • 1 large egg
  • 2-3 cloves garlic, grated
  • 1/4 red onion, grated
  • 2 tbsp fresh oregano, chopped (less if using dry)
  • 1/4 cup fresh parsley, chopped
  • 2 tbsp chopped fresh spearmint, chopped
  • kosher salt and fresh pepper
  • about 1 tsp worth of olive oil cooking spray (I use my Misto)
Wet bread with water, squeezing excess out. Tear into small pieces and place in a large bowl. Combine with turkey, egg, zucchini, breadcrumbs, garlic, onion, mint, parsley, oregano, salt and pepper.

Using a 1/4 cup measure, form each meatball 1/4 cup in size. For best results,refrigerate before cooking to help hold their shape. Spray olive oil in a large nonstick frying pan and cook over low heat or on the grill. Makes about 17 meatballs.

Saturday, August 7, 2010


to chop it all off and never, ever look back...

It's a good DaY

Thursday, August 5, 2010

An intimate exposure, and a must read:

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Should I be proud of that? Is this what you think life is? I wish sometimes people could see what I see, what I feel. I guess then things wouldn't be so right. I hate that everyone believes in other rights, and other wrongs. I guess it's good; healthy.

But... If God was a true, and just God, then wouldn't he appear to each culture, and people in the easiest way for them to take him into their hearts? He would. Culture is not a sin. It's a blessing. Pulling hair, to make someone "like you" doesn't make them 'right'. Conformity is not a religion(Or is it?). Religious rituals don't earn you a seat in the highest degree of heaven, no matter how many times you repeat them. Service, and kind acts might. Did you ever think maybe this life, this world, this earth, was our heaven; and we are trashing it?? Just a thought.