Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Keep Growing!

Not many horns have dropped.
I want to keep growing.
Feel my bones, feel my skin, touch this girl.
Touch me for the future and for the past.
Rush me, tear me.
My night is Day and place is left or wrong.
Was I left behind.

I am caught behind the key.
The rabbit as gone too far ahead.
Place and piece. Peace of mind?
For now and less, and more and not. I am.
I am. You are, we have been and always will be.
Underpopulated, and over.
A blink in time and a breeze of luck.
We will be endangered.

So build your towers of power.
Nature is strong, and strongest, beyond.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Spring is on the tip of my tounge

.x. I always thought it was a shame to die right before spring came. Live through the yucky winter in the city, then die before you see this? Death is never fair, and Jack Frost can not come too quickly.x.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Four Corners Road Trip

This week was a great one.Yet I feel less anger and more anxiety about my lost friend. Now what I can do is make the best of my life, and those I love.

The past is always part of us, and can never be changed. The past is vital to our future. This is evident in the history of the four corners and the countless peoples that have interacted and lived here. I will soon be posting more photos. Make every moment count. Smile. Be kind.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

My morning

One Day.
As I do dishes I see My poops and I's bottle collection. Our Window seal is a happy place for me; with memories anyone could envy. I feel unsettled, but worthy. I did laundry and house work. I have to keep busy. I'm fitting some clothes I've been meaning to, and sewing buttons. I better get in the shower. Mommy made corn beef and cabbage. I doubt I'll each much, but I can try.

.x. My trip this week may help me feel better about her life. The more I think about it the more I feel the life taken too soon, was a mistake. A horrible mistake of a man I want nothing more than to fill with agony. He thinks by saying my name he has some power over me. I'll show him power without a word or flinch on my part. I'll avenge you Megs. I have to, we have to make this right... If that's even possible.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Black, False, Angry

Accidental Homicide, with nothing but circumstantial evidence. Unjust and broken; life is not fair.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Masturbating Bastard Mother Fucker

Megan died in her sleep on March 5, 2011. She was born on Valentine's Day in 87' We shared many beloved sunny afternoons, late movie nights, gas station candy runs, and California's ocean. I love her.

As promised in my post( I plan to fuck with her Widower's mind at the funeral this Saturday. I don't know if he had anything to do with her death(all I have is circumstantial evidence)

I do know that he should have been taking far more heed to his dear wife's health. I know he should of fucking did 20 chest compressions when the dispatcher told him to. I know he hasn't really cried. He is laughing and cracking jokes as her family plans her funeral services.

Seth? Do you hear me? You Sick Mother Fucker, I'm going to make you cry, the way you should cry after losing your new bride. I'll do it with a look, because looks can kill, and mine will burn your soul. You should of took better care of her Seth. You Fucker.You never deserved her.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

It's Fucked Up. OK?

As often as times are hard, time continues. Fall on your face it's winter. Skip spring to summer, and start over. I need the burn something and start fresh. Cleansing myself through fire. Isn't it romantic? I want to be chard. Burn this body, and take in what's left. I'd like to give something back to the earth, not to society. Society doesn't deserve to study this body. They only use it for greed, for the use of making more men. More Monsters.

If I could show the world my hate I would. I am disgusted with them. Dotting hill sides with homes and more babies. Plastered in fake things, like big tits and bigger Escalades. See Jane? Jane is small and blond. Jane has sex, and makes more babies. 'Better' babies than Sally.

House after house. Jane says "We've have a deer problem!" as she swerves to miss distort deer wondering where their wintering grounds have gone. It's obvious to the deer we have a HOUSE PROBLEM. A dumb bimb bot situation in the very least.

As the deer discuss the problem they are hit by Sally, who is on the phone with John because she wants to go to Dillard's for the Sale of the century, and must get an unneeded approval to spend more plastic. Money isn't even real, can you expect people to be?

The only way someone can understand why you would pick up a deer shed is if it was on the shelve at Wally World. If it isn't plastered on a billboard, it isn't 'hardcore' and if you aren't zooming past gorgeous scenery at mach 5 it isn't fun. Because blue people are cool. Movies are as easy to sale to heaps of trash, as straw feeding your 90 year old mother boost for 3 squares.

Who do these Mormons really think they are? Do they really think we should use and abuse this world to the point of no return? After all we can't all be owners of worlds and a universe in the next life.

Like fucking in the street. Everyone can see you and hear you but no one cares to look, because we all do it. Making a family is only a privilege and an abused one at that. I don't believe in genocide, I believe in educated decisions however I don't think that applies to thoughts in any form to more than half of sexually active anyones. Sigh*

Friday, March 4, 2011


It's just simply something that must be done.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

I want to die today.

When did I decide it was ok to feel like this? I can't even remember caring much, it all seems fake. I feel so, old.

I hate that I can't feel for the good in my life. I hate that I have everything, and my heart still feels so cold. Why do I hate everyone so much? Why have I been disconnected from mankind? I want to be happy, I want it to be Spring.

Damn it, I didn't ask for this paranoia. These pictures do make me feel, its nice. I hope they help you feel as well.